A ways to go

In the afflictive states that I get myself into around my sons situation, that this past week or so has been deteriorating, I am still looking to get out of the thoughts, feeling and sensations that I perceive as negative.
And yet I know that as long as I am running from them, trying to avoid them, indulge them or antidote them away, that will only have them become more solid, because I am making them more real than my own inherent clarity and well being.
As I take a short moment, I realize I do not have to be afraid of these feelings, that I can just cozy up to them and feel them fully, allow them to rage inside of me and if I can just be with them fully, clarity will come....then if there is an action to be taken, it will be the one of greatest, simple benefit for everyone.
I know this to be true, I have experienced this a number of times.
and yet when the much disliked thoughts and feelings and stories arise, I tense and collapse into them, like they are reality and then I am not of benefit to anyone, myself included.

This is the 'process' of gaining confidence in clarity. To face all of my affective states as many times and for however long, is what will bring me to the stability of my fundamental nature. This is the place where all smells are equal.
I have a ways to go but I must acknowledge I have come a ways also.
I have been blessed in my life with a situation that is not easily resolved and so my search has led me to the ancient teachings that up to this era have been hidden from the commoner. I trust these teaching because I have read about them through the years but only now with this new contemporary format have I been able to bring this amazing benefit into my life daily.
Gratitude to all those who have gone before me and those who are dedicated to me in the present, Mia, Toby, Candace and all my fellow resters who are there for me daily. A big kiss to you all. I cannot do it without you