What was and how I used to be was: that for many years, now, I cannot recall ever having such a consistent feeling of well being. Just like my world is pleasurable in its everyday ordinary state. I used to have this feeling sometimes when I was younger but life just seemed to have taken it out of me over the years, that sheer enjoyment of being alive just for the sake of being alive. And now a lot of mornings I wake up like a little kid, just ready to play, take on the day. Before I would always kind of cautiously check out the day and if it looked like a 'good' one I would try to keep it that way and if it looked like a 'bad' one I would just try to get through it and hope for better days to come. And I just tried to have more 'good' days than 'bad' days.
Now, even the 'bad' days I mostly experience the pleasure of living, unless of course I get tangled up and identified with a POV rather than knowing myself to be only, wholly awareness and thus clarity.
Of course what made a 'good' day or a 'bad' day was my identifying with the positive or the negative POV. And now to just let POV to be as they are, whatever they are, without having to DO something about them or with them but just to continue to rely in clarity and rest.
Life is SO much easier and So much more enjoyable.
And more and more I plan to train up in clarity. To retrain my brain and my reality to goodness and benefit that we all are. All other things in my life come secondary to this training because all other things in my life benefit from this clarity in ways I never could have imagined when I was living my life from points of view.
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