I turned sixty years
My birth mom left me, again. Dying of throat cancer while my brother and sisters and I gathered around. Ten days later my father who adopted me as an infant, the only father i have ever knows. A man who had the greatest influence on my life, fell, breaking his pelvis. He was ninety five. He died the next day from internal bleeding.
The shock and the loss of these two most significant people in my life has been indescribable. Not only grief but more an internal process of what these two individuals held for me being on the planet with me at this time. The deep viceral release is beyond my ability to describe.
But the dream world is active every night with the business these charnel grounds have with me.
I just rest and let it all be in its horrid splender. My minds seeking for answers is weakening and only there is what is right here , right now.
LET IT BE AS IT IS!
My birth mom left me, again. Dying of throat cancer while my brother and sisters and I gathered around. Ten days later my father who adopted me as an infant, the only father i have ever knows. A man who had the greatest influence on my life, fell, breaking his pelvis. He was ninety five. He died the next day from internal bleeding.
The shock and the loss of these two most significant people in my life has been indescribable. Not only grief but more an internal process of what these two individuals held for me being on the planet with me at this time. The deep viceral release is beyond my ability to describe.
But the dream world is active every night with the business these charnel grounds have with me.
I just rest and let it all be in its horrid splender. My minds seeking for answers is weakening and only there is what is right here , right now.
LET IT BE AS IT IS!
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