Always I have had seperation anxiety, abandenment issues. I hated when Harv would head out to work somewhere for weeks/months at a time. Sometimes the anxiety was so accute that I would just throw in with him at the last minute, if circumstances allowed.
This time was an accute time because we have not been apart for quite some time. In the middle of the night I had feelings of terror, accute loneliness and anxiety.
These intense emotions did not disturb me. My wellbeing was not affected in the least. And soon they passed. Then I had feeling of excitment about having the place all to myself. And as he was packing this morning I just had a balanced sence of 'whatever'! Whatever comes up when he walks out that door is just fine with me. I will intimately be in relationship with myself, no matter what. There is no longer anything to avoid. I love it. Life is so much more enjoyable and easy when I am not antidoting, avoiding or grasping/indulging etc.
And now my time, my energy is my own for one whole month
ya hooooo!
This time was an accute time because we have not been apart for quite some time. In the middle of the night I had feelings of terror, accute loneliness and anxiety.
These intense emotions did not disturb me. My wellbeing was not affected in the least. And soon they passed. Then I had feeling of excitment about having the place all to myself. And as he was packing this morning I just had a balanced sence of 'whatever'! Whatever comes up when he walks out that door is just fine with me. I will intimately be in relationship with myself, no matter what. There is no longer anything to avoid. I love it. Life is so much more enjoyable and easy when I am not antidoting, avoiding or grasping/indulging etc.
And now my time, my energy is my own for one whole month
ya hooooo!
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