yesterday, I noticed that my annoyance with family members held no annoyance for me. Now that statement will make no sense in the regular world of thought and only those who are able and willing to rely on what is at the basis of all our thoughts, emotions, sensations and experiences will have any understanding of that statement.
However, the fact remains that in all the daily/nightly data streams that endlessly come and go, there is no effect on my well being, there is no affect on my happiness, my enjoyment and ease of living my life.
This is a real boon to my life, to the quality that my life is to me now.
Before, I used to be swayed this way and that, depending on the thoughts, emotions or circumstances of my life and the quality of my life and the ease of living was totally affected by these internal and external data streams. This had me having some days, weeks, months and years even' that were hard to live through and sometimes I would go looking for a reward, like a good vacation or a night out or a good stiff drink or just a fun time of some kind.
Now, I may still go on a vacation or a night out but the intent and purpose of going is not about my reward and the expectation from going is not so great, thus I am able to be so very much more easy going with it.
My rewarding myself with food/drink, shopping, etc is just not there anymore.
I can now face what ever arises. Even when a very inflictive situation that comes at me out of the blue presents itself, I am calm, stable and able to address the situation in a clear and appropriate manner.
And I have a confidence that I can do this that is growing daily, just meet my life, my life situations on there own terms without avoiding anything.
This puts me in such intimate relationship with my self, with all that is present in my life and with all that is there with the people around me.
It is such a fulfilling way to live life. A way that has the colours and textures of life so delighting and rewarding that there is nothing more to seek. What is in every moment is so exquisite and delightful.
Its the most amazing way to live. A way that I would never have dreamt was possible for little ol' me.
I would love to be able to share this with all the fine people of the world. The fall out of every one experiencing their life like this would be amazing.
However, the fact remains that in all the daily/nightly data streams that endlessly come and go, there is no effect on my well being, there is no affect on my happiness, my enjoyment and ease of living my life.
This is a real boon to my life, to the quality that my life is to me now.
Before, I used to be swayed this way and that, depending on the thoughts, emotions or circumstances of my life and the quality of my life and the ease of living was totally affected by these internal and external data streams. This had me having some days, weeks, months and years even' that were hard to live through and sometimes I would go looking for a reward, like a good vacation or a night out or a good stiff drink or just a fun time of some kind.
Now, I may still go on a vacation or a night out but the intent and purpose of going is not about my reward and the expectation from going is not so great, thus I am able to be so very much more easy going with it.
My rewarding myself with food/drink, shopping, etc is just not there anymore.
I can now face what ever arises. Even when a very inflictive situation that comes at me out of the blue presents itself, I am calm, stable and able to address the situation in a clear and appropriate manner.
And I have a confidence that I can do this that is growing daily, just meet my life, my life situations on there own terms without avoiding anything.
This puts me in such intimate relationship with my self, with all that is present in my life and with all that is there with the people around me.
It is such a fulfilling way to live life. A way that has the colours and textures of life so delighting and rewarding that there is nothing more to seek. What is in every moment is so exquisite and delightful.
Its the most amazing way to live. A way that I would never have dreamt was possible for little ol' me.
I would love to be able to share this with all the fine people of the world. The fall out of every one experiencing their life like this would be amazing.
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