This is how it is to rest in awareness

wouldn't it be nice to say that once we are awake to who we are, the wide open space of awareness, that life would change in those solid ways we once dreamed of, or I once dreamed of, i should say. maybe i am unique in that. I thought enlightenment would bring a rising above the base aganies of the human condiditon.
However, even, as I lye here in my bed, unable to sleep, my back has pulled legaments and hurts bad, i am worried much about my son, my daughter is far away pondering some major life decisions and i have a shit load of data going on about myself and every one around me and life in general.....even with all the afflictive thoughts and accompanying feelings, I am restfull. This means I am still able to enjoy my time.  This situaiton would have absolutely sunk me into a place of dark despair before. There are many things I want to do, need to do and I can not do them .  And I am faced with lying here listening to my thoughts, however now there is less belief in the truth of these thoughts and I recognise that the thoughts are like wild children, running around out of control,screaming, crying, fighting and this is becoming equal to when those children thoughts are sweet and complient and entertaining and enjoyable.  This is how it is to rest in awareness